Thursday, August 30, 2007

Karma Is A Funny Things

lately, so many things happen wit or without my expectation.. sum of da things was nice to face and vice versa.. hmm, wat a world.. once u in dis role, da next thing u realize sumbody wuz replacing ur place.. does it da things we called 'karma'? or dat just da thing called 'human satisfaction'?

i've read one of my fren YM status, 'wat goes around comes around..' sumhow, i kinda believe it coz i've experience dat thing alot.. so much until i dun even really care wat happen around me~ back to da thing i wanna talk, does actually karma is a funny things or it's really da things dat u supposed to face? haha.. or it's juz da stupidity or human being? hahaha.. stupidity is not da point here, i've decided to be on my own, be wat i like to be and live da way i supposed to be.. why do i really care?

do u agree to condiser me as a selfish and cruel person? i've been thinking about it since i've moved to this place i'm staying rite now.. dis place really makes me feel like home and confortable, i can't accept anymore being nice to da situation dat i'm not supposed to.. haha, not to forget.. dis words remain in my mind so much lately~ ' i moved bcoz i wanna ran away from my problem..' well, it might be true but since i stay there wit nuthing to care, i forgot who i really are and what i supposed to do, is dat fair between them and me? so pathetic isn't it?

since i move, many things happen to change.. i can have dis and i can have dat, without anybody to care wat did i bought or do.. i also can think about dis and say about dat, hv my own responsibelities, sumthing to work on.. go work in the morning, back in the evening.. and then, hv fun during weekend.. my life changed so much in a day.. everythings so unexpected.. this things also makes me forget to thinks wat happen around me, wat should i care? does they care about me? does they care when i'm in their situations? naaahh, hell no! they only think on their own, their rights and their mind.. so, why should i care about them? why should i'm helping them? tell me one good reason why should i'm involve in dat confusing situation..

i'm so happy to say dat i'm free to choose the way i want to live.. but, thinking of wat might happen to them makes me keep in my mind, 'wuz i a gud fren?' or 'wat can i do to help them?' so, from wat ever happen lately, i realize dat i've my own track to and i'm on it.. being a cruel person, doesn't really care wat happen in order to stay out from da problem which wuz never had a happy ending.. but, i do really hope and pray~ soon or later dis things will end.. and together live in peace and harmony..

now, i only can hope..

Sunday, August 26, 2007

It's Finally Come!!!

well, da day i ever wanted to came its finally arrived.. wit all of my passion and prayer, i finally got a job wit streamyx.. placed in the call center department and wit basic salary rm1700, dat really² makes me scream all nite long.. hahaha.. who ever expect i got the job wit dat much salary? i also don’t..

then i’ve started to dreaming of buying so much stuff.. wanna buy alot of cloth, shoes and jeans.. wanna eat all flavors of dunkin donut (my fav donut~) and wanna buy PSP beside PS2 and PS3.. haha.. wanna buy a DOPOD 818pro.. and after 3 month wanna apply credit card.. and a wira aeroback (just second hand..) which my father decided to arranged it.. is dat to much? hehe.. well.. it might to much but sumhow, it’s all the things i ever wanted if i got the job..

of coz i’ve to settle first things in da house, electricity to pay.. water also, phone line? i’ll ask shah first.. the rent of the house.. and bla bla bla.. wat so ever.. of coz i can’t do it in 1 month but i’ll try to fix it in 3 month times, hehe..

anyhow and sumhow.. i’m really happy dat i got dis job wit unexpected and unpredicted.. i wake up dat morning wit the same things in my mind, ‘wat a day to passed without a job..’ then i received a call saying dat i’m selected to dat job.. thanx to god dat finally answering my prayers..

and to u all, who hv also praying for me.. thanx a lot..

til then, peace

Monday, August 20, 2007

A Sinner Prayer's

its been a while i havent step in ur place.. i feel kinda lost n stress sumtimes n i feel guilty to ask 4 ur help only when im in trouble.. i need to rebuild myself so that i wont getting more far from u.. pls stand beside me n guide me while im changing to a new skin.. new life that will help me to change the way i threat a person so badly.. learn how to accept ur present in my life.. learn how to realy taking care of sumone that is important in my life.. n will learn how to realy understand them.. i want a revolution in my life.. so that i can independently bring myself to walk along the freshy white road.. attach myself with all the saints to move along to the end of my journey safely.. still, there's a lot things i need to learn n it will take times to solve all the puzzles in my life..

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