Wednesday, October 21, 2009



The journey of life will lead you to different path of life. At this point, you'll think that you're on the safe side of the road and be so comfortable with it. The next seconds, you'll realized that you're on the downside of the wheel, upside down. At that moment, you'll missed all the time when you can swing this life all the way you like.

They claimed they call it as an EXPERIENCE.

I often mentioned about my dissatisfaction of life. I did realize that after I've posted last few post in my blog. Life wasn't easy for me these day, especially when have to face to many changes in a short time. Everything just change so drastically while I wasn't expecting for it. I do remember reminding all of you that to expect the unexpected, but I forgot to remind myself. I'm still me, being that little innocent boy that still having fun and hoping for a stick of candy in the end of the day.

After work today, I met my colleague at mamak restaurant around SS15, Subang Jaya. We chat a few topic before I found out few thing that really makes me shocked. First, he got a new job. Then, no more Canon EOS 40D. New PDA phone. What else?

I'm stunned. No words can express my feeling. Excited, happy, sad, everything was just mixing up. I didn't expect this to happened. It's a lie if I wasn't have any jealousy at all. If you asking me the same question the few years back, you'll have the different answer. I'll do the same job that can fly, and at the same time, travel around the world. But, my future didn't lead me to that happy ending. I'm still stuck under the same roof, the same air to breathe which I'm proudly say that I achieved first goal of my life. Honestly, I do have that regret these day but still I've gone this far of the journey of life, the way I chose few years back.

Somehow, I'm totally admiring him for being brave to leave his comfortable zone and take this risk to achieve his dream at time of age. Isn't that what society often said 'satisfaction'? Or is it just for the sake of having fun and travel around the world?. I have a friend, that currently working with the government that dare to quit his job for a cabin crew position. I still remember how badly I screamed when he mentioned about it and I do remember saying how stupid he was if he decided to accept the offer. I haven't talk with him until today by then. It was just a silly point of mistake.

At this point of time, for sure it's better to quit being so negative. No point to raised it as an issue, let it just be a like today's paper front hot story. Soon, I'll might forget what ever happened, like it use to be and wait for a better things to happen tomorrow. Lets try to be more supportive, let them feel the satisfaction. It's their life. Either bad or worst, they are still part of our life, which we proudly memorized them as our friend.

My friend, I've told you this before, and I think I've to repeat this twice, make me proud of you. Sky's the limit for those who dare to dream.


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Saturday, October 17, 2009

The Forgotten Promises


Few things happened lately on my busy day to catch of this fast growing society. I just slow me that much until I think that I was to far behind. Believe me, at the moment of my interview session, I commonly said that I'll be able to furnished my self with a minimum supervision. Honestly, I've lied. It was just my attention to get the assignment.

I always want attention of the society. I do assume that I'm being ignored and left alone at the corner of that empty room. I'm so scared. I want my life to be full of joy and happiness. Will I get that? Will I achieve everything that always be on my dream?

Keep on thinking that I make my self a foolish guy.

I still remember when I was on the top side of the wheel. I was on the track that I've always dream of when it was suddenly ripped of from me. It was so hurt but luckily I managed to catch up. It was just not that easy. I felt like I'm learning to walk again.

I keep on saying that I managed to recover but to be honest I wasn't. I've disappointed everyone. I just knew it. My score card effected, dropping from the great rating to below expectation. It was just not me. I still need that help and I don't think I've recover that much.


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Monday, October 12, 2009

Dealing With Destiny

LIFE is a words that full of unexpected things to happen. It totally makes me scared. Why? For some reason, I afraid that I wasn't able to accept the fact of life that I'm hurt with the fate of destiny. Without or with my realization, the tears fall from my eyes, just because of the fact that I'm unable to accept.

I admit that I'll cry sometimes. Being alone around the society which I wasn't really familiar, it just a very tough thing for me. Today I'm standing beside this person and tomorrow I realize that I'll be walking with another person. It just keep on changing until I realize that I'm running to catch the step the person I want to be.

It wasn't really easy.

People do mistakes. Did they learn something from it? Or did they just ignored it? Ask yourself either you appreciate the person you love or you just being someone that doing the routine of life? Wake up, go to work, hanging around, eat and drink, went to sleep and start all over again? Isn't that too normal? Isn't the society said that being normal is boring? Isn't that being different considered to be WEIRD?

Sometimes I don't really understand what the society really want. Should I keep my mouth shut or should I scream for them to realize my existance? Should I tell them how was I really-really feel inside my heart? Didn't they realize that I'm hurt with all of they decisions?

Did you say you love that person today?

P/S : Picture taken on Sham suprise birthday party. Sorry for the picture quality.

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Monday, October 05, 2009

The Theory Of My Life

Few issue raised up lately. First is MONEY, second is contract renewal. Third is friendship, are you a best friend of mine or what so ever and many other things. Somehow, I become a bit 'perasan' that people like me, want to hangout with me and to let me live my life around happily without any jealousy or 'back-talk'.

FACT : This is the life my dear, the things is damn normal.

So, I did assume that I've forget the first rule of life. Which is 'Mouth can't never be SHUT off'. My God, why everything that I've told you and I've mark as SECRET, and a big secret is spread out like it was a very hot story of the day? Damn I hate you so much! But, thank you for the bad popularity.

Anyhow, did I mention about being so bitch? I didn't, rite?

It might be you, and so you, but please don't make it to CLEAR for others to view. It's just a simple rule of life. Cute = Nice, Bitch = FUCKER!! I've forgive you (Damn I'm so perasan this time), but I'll never forget.

Fact #2 : I've new Guardian Angel.

Is that EVEN a fact?

For the first time ever, when I ask a person of this 'do you really know me?', I got the direct answer 'YES'. I asked again 'are you sure?', and a direct answer of yes given again. It was just might be a simple answer to a stupid question, but when the question is asked is serious, the simple yes become my strength for a simple friendship. To be honest, I'm so proud. No body ever give a direct YES to that question, haha. At least I know there's a person who willing to learn about ME. Hehe.

Fact #3 : Close your ears

So, life is just a simple breathe taking journey. Expect the unexpected, live life to the fullest and sky's is the limit. Somehow, I was wondering of how far can I go with you? How sad I am in a situation of you taking that path and I'm taking mine and everything. Each of you played your part in this life and each of your part impacted my life so much. YES, I love you. I admit that sometimes I might be crossing the line too much, but, everybody crossed the limit right? So, it just become the topic of the day before everyone forget about it when the new HOT things spread out.

Look at the picture below, am I so innocent?

P/S : Picture is damn nice, but my pose is so damn embarrassing. Special 'Thank You' for the photographer, Mr Mustaza.

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