LOVE.. Courage and HOPE :P

Today I bumped with a colleague which I often-ly declined to have a talk with. I sit beside her just because I want to be looked like a nice good person. Actually that’s the only seat which was not occupied and she was the only person I know and by knowing me, I rather not having my lunch alone. We started our conversation with a stupid question like what shift are you, your meal break time, how is the cross selling thingy and what so ever office talk. It was so damn boring minutes of my life. Even I’ve tried my best to eat as fast as I can just to leave a stupid conversation.

The next thing I realized that she’s a great friend to have a ‘heart-to-heart’ talk with

We started talking about relationship, family and love life. I finally found out a few new interesting stuff about her. She talked with full of her passion which impressed me, she did achieved her cross selling in 10 days, which impressed me as well and plus a few other stuff which make me more impressed to her. I’m a person who judge on my first sight and sometime I’m actually wrong with my judgement, but I never learned from it. I never expected a person like this can be a person like that or vice versa. Take note that life will takes forever to understand. So, expect the unexpected. Life isn’t fair anyway.

I realized then that life is not about me, myself and mine. It’s actually about you, me and us. So, to keep thing by yourself is just a silly stupid mistake. It’s just doesn’t matter of either you want it or not, you have to accept the fact that you’re living with a society of people, and you can’t hide the fact of being on the right or wrong side. Everything is EXPOSED. No matter how hard you’ve tried to hide it, soon or later it will be a topic to talk by the people around you. What will be your action at that point of time? Will you be in denial on what ever have happened and start telling your own story to cover up yourself?

I told her that I’ve a heartbroken friend and still in grief for the passed years. She said bullshit. She didn’t believe that she have to suffer after break off or failed in a relationship. She said she could recovered and have a ‘replacement’ in only 10 days. She admitted that we do need a moment of silence or to grieve on a failure of a relationship but take it as a challenge of improvement and make it within couples of day. You don’t need time to know each other, to know what would you like for lunch or what will you wear while you’re sleeping at night. Leave the pass and do look for a better future. Learn while you’re still in love. Why do you have to spend the rest of your life for a person who dump you and regret for a person whom you dumped? It’s a silly fact of life.

So, I was thinking based on my last relationship, I was crazy like hell on my break up day. I did curse and scream like hell before ended up sleeping with tears in my eyes. What did I get then? NOTHING!

Who is stupid and who is not stupid? At that point of time, I keep on saying that the person is definitely stupid for losing a person like me. WTFishhh? Come on Nyun, cermin yourself-laaa!! Ko ingat ko cantikk? Hahaha..

I’ve learned that if you’re unable to release your passed to have a better future, what is your point of life then? We need some changes and need to be brave to face the reality of life. So, even though I didn’t know which is the right path with you, but guide me and I will guide you so that in the end, I’m not standing and crying alone but I will smile because I have you by my side forever.